Monday, December 16, 2013

Before 2013 Ends...

The year is almost gone now!!!

I know I did not blog much for the year except for some nonsensical blabberings here and there. But hey, no news is good news! A lack of blog posts is a good indication that I am busy living my life in the real rather than sitting in front of the computer, being all emo and needy and shit, right?

All's cool!

I had a good year. It hasn't always been rosy and smooth-sailing in 2013, but definitely ending on a cheery note. I hope. We still have two more weeks to go, so no jinx! *tap on wood*

The past two years have been somewhat of an interesting ride. I find myself drifting apart with some people who are really dear to me and feeling really down about it. But I also managed to reconnect with some old friends and realising through these old-yet-new friendships that I can be a different person, a better person. A person who I am still trying to, learning to become. It will take time, but we are slowly getting there.

I am definitely learning to control my temper better, to stop fixating so much. And most importantly, learning to cut myself and the people around me some slack by letting go of expectations and also by not doing anything simply because I hope that it will earn me approval, or worst, their gratitude. This is the most tedious way to be in any relationship, be it friendship, kinship, or anyone whom you really care about.

In 2013, I also find myself marveling at the wonders of fate and destiny. The two things which have always been way beyond my control, but which I have mad respect for. I can never try to second-guess or challenge them, because they never fail to amaze me with their pocketful of surprises. But they have taken care of me well, and brought me to where I am now. I am grateful.

So there, this is what I want to put down on record. Before the year ends. Think I need to do one more post to look at the resolutions I made at the beginning of this year. Although we do have two more weeks to go before I have to make new ones, so... #ProcrastinatorInDaHouse