Monday, January 23, 2006

Hello, How Are You? Ok? Fine?

Okaaay, so I haven't been the most responsible blogger recently. I apologise for my lack of responsibility towards blogging. But I will not apologise for my laziness. Laziness IS one of my responsibilities too.

Becoming an anime freak. I actually joined an anime forum in the hopes of getting to more fellow anime fans. Finished Hunter X Hunter last week. Fantastic. Going to get my hands on the manga very, very soon. FINALLY MANAGED TO BORROW BLEACH MANGA FROM ONE OF MY COLLEAGUES FROM SISTIC, PAUL!!! THANK YOU BAO LUO!!!

So happy, so happy. This reminds me of something that one of my friends said to me before. This was before I was into mangas and anime, and could not understand why he likes to watch "cartoons" so much. He said, "A good manga is worth every stroke, and a good anime is worth every second." Bahaha, Bad quote, but if you love mangas and anime, it is so true.

Well, here's my own little quote, "BISHOUNEN, BISHOUNEN, MANY MANY BISHOUNEN!!!" Now how's that for a good quote. ^_______^

Sunday, January 22, 2006

For What?

The denial is becoming intolerable. I think it's time to admit it.

I have a problem.

But I don't know how to go about fixing it. I tried ignoring it, but it's slowly gnawing at me. Constant reminders that it's there.

I think it's time.

Monday, January 16, 2006

Of Childhoods And Braggers

I am always hearing and reading about how bad childhood experiences can lead to traumatising effects in adulthood. Like for instance, in a lot of novels, usually the psychotic killers had abusive fathers, alcoholic mothers, and were horribly sexually abused by one and/or more adults of his immediate family.

Or you will hear a friend talking about a friend of a friend’s cousin’s boyfriend’s aunt-twice-removed’s daughter, who had an abortion at sixteen (haha, I actually typed sexteen, but Microsoft actually corrected it for me), because her father is a raging gambler and heavy drug abuser, and would beat up her and the friend of a friend’s cousin’s boyfriend’s aunt-twice-removed, whenever he did not have money to gamble and/or buy drugs.

As you can see, such experiences about the "hardships" suffered in the early years can vary in so many different kinds of shape, sizes and style.

Personally, I am sick of hearing all these so-called "sob stories".

It seems like nowadays, most of the people out there think that having a bad childhood experience makes them better, cooler people. “Because of what I went through, I am what I am today.” And the stories got more and more ridiculous and some, downright stupid.


I don’t know what’s wrong with these people. I strongly believe that most people who had abusive childhoods, do not and will not want to talk about their experiences. Unless they really have to, and most certainly not with the intention of bragging.

Not really stating my own experiences as an example, because I wouldn’t dare to compare my almost very blissful childhood with anyone else’s, but just something more of a sharing of personal experience. When I was younger, I used to lie about my parents being together. I even had made up stories of family outings, and happy family gatherings.

That was until one day when I was in Primary Three, my form teacher, who taught me since I was in Primary One, and knew my family background quite well, took me aside and asked me, “Why do you lie about your parents?”

We then had a very long talk, and she told me that I should focus on the positive aspects of my situation. Even though they are not together, my parents were still very concerned of making sure that I have a complete family with two caring parents, and also making sure that I knew that I am not an unwanted product of a failed marriage.

She used a lot of very negative words on my situation, some of which I had tried to avoid thinking about, and some of which I did not even understood at that time, yet, somehow her words made me realised that I am actually so fortunate compared to a lot of other people.

It is something that I remember still until today. I don’t think what I am now was a product of that day, I don’t believe in instant turning points. I believe in gradually making a turn, discovering whether it’s a right or wrong turn. But whenever I feel that I am so sibei-suay-until-cannot-suay-anymore, I would try to focus on the good aspects.

Probably also why I hate it when people start to BRAG about how bad their childhood was. There are so many more people in the World who suffered so much more, and had suffered in silence for a long time. These are the people who truly deserve the bragging rights and the admiration.

Monday, January 09, 2006


Rain, rain, rain!!!

I am so sick of the rain! It's alright when I am at home, safely buried under many layers of blankets. But when I have to work, the rain is INTOLERABLE!!!

Wet shoes!!! I hate wet shoes!!! I can't wear the same pair of shoes twice in a row in the last couple of days, because it takes about one day for my shoes to dry, and the wet weather is not helping.


I think my mood is as dreary as the weather. But I do like the rain. I like the coolness in the air, the sound of the rain hitting the pavements. And the whole feeling of being enveloped within your immediate surroundings.

But I hate getting caught in the rain without an umbrella.

I hate getting wet and looking like a soggy chicken.

But most of all, I hate wet shoes.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Some Anime

Hmmm, when was the last time I blogged? Let's see. Okay, so the last time I blogged was 4th January. Not as long ago as I thought it was.

Been watching anime religiously for the past couple of days. Watching Kyou Kara Maou and Hunter X Hunter concurrently. Actually Naruto too, but not really very into it.

I have to say that KYOU KARA MAOU IS SO DAMN GOOD. If you want cool guys, they have it. Humour, silliness, guys who love guys, girls who love guys, you name it, they have it. While not the best in terms of story plot or the graphics with their slightly too cliché developments and much too-vibrant colours, it makes up for it by being pure entertainment.

Hunter X Hunter is very good too, but I am not too deep into the episodes yet, but so far, I had a great time watching it. So if you have some time on your hands, and a lot of money or lots of bandwidth, these two anime are a must-watch.

Still waiting for Bleach. Bleach is about the only anime that I watched that has humour, great story plot, fantastic artwork, and everything. Bahaha.

PS: Hunter X Hunter is complete with 62 episodes, with 3 completed OAVs. As for Kyou Kara Maou, it is still ongoing with 64 episodes so far.

PSS: Both Hunter X Hunter (No. 32) and Kyou Kara Maou (No. 50), along with Bleach (No. 27), Prince of Tennis (No. 18) and Naruto (No. 17) is TV Asahi Top 100 Anime last year. What can I say? I have good taste in anime. Here’s the link to the entire list:

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

First Post Of 2006

Happy New Year, everyone! Been lazing around at home for the past two days. After a mahjong all-nighter on New Year's Eve, all the way till Sunday night, it took me two days to get back my sleep.

Bahaha. I am sleeping my 2006 away, eh? Anyway, Chinese New Year is coming soon! Ang baos, ang baos! Hehheheeheheheheheehehe. All single (and very much available. Hmmm. Gee, I don't have to add this "very much available" part, right? Doesn't contribute to the topic at all.) people who celebrate Chinese New Year (uninterestingly, the Chinese, bahaha) look forward to Chinese New Year and ANG BAO!!! HEHHEHHHEEHHEEHHHEEEHHHH.

Okay, so here are some of my New Year resolutions, in no order of importance:

a) Get better grades.
b) Do more of the things on my To-Do-Before-I-Die list.
c) Spend more time with my parents.
d) Learn Korean (starting this Friday!!!).
e) Be more knowledgeable.
f) Get a better perspective about myself.

That's about it, those that I think are important. I would put "become prettier", but I sincerely believe that my innate beauty is to the max already, same as Tan See Tien, so no need. Baaahahahaah.