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Just something weird that no one will understand. It's okay.

Thank you, SJ Tim Robinson. You made me see something so meaningful and so true that it kinda knocked a little sense into me.

I think it's a miraculous stroke of fate that made me search for you. Reading about your life made me realised that nothing is constant in this world, things change, people change, everything changes, the most important thing is being happy. The most important thing is that I should STOP wasting my life away on useless things and keep looking out for what is truly mine.

Even though our paths has never and will probably never, ever cross. I am still grateful to you for once giving my life a lot of light and colour, and for giving me this relevation, unintended as it may be.

I hope you stay happy, no matter what others says, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVOURITE!!!

Music Will Always Be Music

For some weird reason, I suddenly have this urge to listen to one of Five's (Five who? You ask?) songs from their first album. I used to really like them, haha. I thought that they really had talent. And Scotty was finnnneeee. Keke.

So I was looking through my stacks of old CDs (there are A LOT, I can assure you), trying to find my Five CD, and I was quite amused by some of the CDs that I bought and REALLY liked. Buying CDs used to be one of my favourite things to do, and I have to admit, I wasn't very discriminating when it came to music. I am still not very discriminating now, but I have become a lot more picky since.

Hehheh, so here are some (yeah, only SOME) of the CDs that I used to love:

Kavana
Code Red
Hanson
Jordan Knight
Aaron Carter
Vitamin C
Peter Andre
Caught In The Act
Lolly (Oh Mickey, you're so fine~~~~, that Lolly)
Human Nature

Hehheh, just a few lar, no time to go and look at each and everyone. But I did found a few more that I think I might still like such as Sixpence None The Richer, Nelly Furtado, Standfast and Joan Jett. Hehheh, so I will be listening to these CDs, not forgetting my Five, and trying to remember what it felt like when I was 16 years old. ^_______^

Huh?

What does he mean?

It's messing with my mind. WTH?

Dropping In

Lalalala, the almost monthly studying session at the National Library Study Lounge is upon us! It's so dead boring and so dead quiet here, until we actually arrive. Ahha, scratch that sentence. Why the hell am I bothering to blog when all I have to say are boring stuffs? They are not even nonsensical enough to be funny.

Sigh... Losing my mojo touch I think. I attribute it to exam stress. Ahha, I know mojo means something else, hence I strike it out. But I think mojo is a much stronger word than touch, just that maybe it means sometimes else. Does it?

Kekeke.

Boring...

Arrgh

Sometimes, you have things that you just don't know how to go about saying. It's so hard to want to talk about certain things, but unable to say it because you don't know how to explain it.

Frustrating.

Somebody Hates Me! Boo hoo hoo!

I don't really know what to make of this. So there have been some stuffs going on in my class for the past couple of weeks, and on Monday, someone sent out an anonymous email pissing on just about everything and some people in the class. So there I was basking in the mystery and buzz going on when, TADAH!, I got my first, very own HATEMAIL. FINALLY! SOMEONE HAS TAKEN NOTICE OF ME! Wahahaha, so here it is, aptly titled "frenly advise".

"Maureen, dis is an email from sumone in ur class who wans to give you some advice. you tink your so great and so popular in class. But you are just a bitch that nobody likes. stop behaving like you tink ur so pretty and so popular. every1 hates you. When your frens are smiling at you, they actaully don't like and hate you. Ppl talk bad about you behind your back all the tym, is jus dat you are so stupid den you never realize it
i think its time you change or sooner no1 will be your friend. you betta cum to realise it soon or veri soon you be hated by evry1 in d class. its not 2 late to cum to ur senses and change.

from:

an advisor"

This is so very, very secondary school. Just that in secondary school people just talk behind my back and point fingers, but I still knew who they were. They don't hide behind stupid anonymous emails like "anonym.73081bcb09@mytrashmail.com". It's kinda amusing to me.

Fact is I do think that I am rather pretty and quite popular. To think that someone actually noticed that! How much must that person been paying attention to me! And to warrant a hatemail! I must have REALLY made a difference in that person's life. Muahahaha.

Anyway, to this "advisor" person, thanks for the FRIENDLY advice. I do not think I have the ability to change, what with me being so old and set in my ways and all. Thanks anyway. I really, really, really appreciate it.

Shows Day

Watched West Side Story with Dav, Zhen Zhen and her friend and after that, met up with Yan and Ivy with Zhen Zhen to watch 8 Below. Great musical, FANTASTIC movie. I love the dogs!!! So cute!!!

The movie is really, really, really good, and it's nice to see Paul Walker do something that I actually love for a change. Ahha. He's such a good-looking guy, but the movies he was never really did appeal to me, except maybe Fast & Furious. But he's seriously a very, very good-looking guy, he has that whole California surfer-dude look. And his eyes. Muahahahaha.

But the dogs, my goodness, the dogs!!! They make me want to get 8 huskies,put them all in my bedroom and play with them all day. I love dogs!!! Ehhehheh.

West Side Story was great! Not the best that I've seen, but I love the singing, Josh Young especially has a really mesmerising voice. Kinda tired now, so this entry's a little crappy. Heh. Time to get a shower and go to bed. WORK TOMORROW! Sian!

Nothing

Sometimes, I feel like I don't really know what is happening, where I am headed, what the hell I am doing with my life.

I used to have so many dreams, ambitions and things that I want to achieve.

I still have them. But it seems as if I am getting further and further away from them each and everyday. It feels like most of the time I am just living my life in a daze, waiting for each day to speed past so that the next can come along.

I see some of my friends living the exact life that I don't want for myself, a secure, safe, but structured life, and I see myself heading exactly the same way. I don't want that. I want unpredictability, excitement, not knowing what the next day brings, being scared shitless for no apparent reason one moment then laughing like a crazy person the next.

Yet, this is not what I want.

I don't even know what I want.

I want to see the World, but I want the safety of home.

I want to experience new things, but I don't want any changes.

I want to be someone who can weather anything, but I cannot take any hardships.

I want to be happy being who I am, yet I lust after the riches and the fame.

I am a piece of shit. A useless piece of shit.

If I die now and whoever I meet after that asks me what I have done in my life that deserves any merit at all. I have nothing.

Fuck it, I am nothing.

SIM Library Is SOOOOO Quiet

Sitting at the SIM Library now, surfing the net. Aren't people who have unlimited access at home, and who still die die want to use free public access irritating? Muahaha. Hate me? I don't care!!!

Anyway, I am so tired! I am going to fall asleep at the lecture. It's not a possbility, it's not even a prediction, it's a FACT. I AM going to fall asleep at the lecture.

Obviously I have gotten myself into deeper shit than I expected. Ahaha, actually, it is still quite manageable at this point, but when exams comes around, I don't know how many ways I am going to die.

I hope I can clear the courses I have this year, and defer next year with a piece of mind. Ahha, I know. I saw that. Should be a PEACE of mind. Just left it there so that you can see how stupid I can get.

I keep doing thing nowadays. Like "I live at Woodlands", I will type "I leave at Woodlands". Or "Help me say High to her". My brain is going into the sewage. Don't use something for a long time, it will start to degenerate. Muahahaah. Okay, so today I decided to get myself a few books to read. Reading always makes my brain feel exercised. That's why I don't like to read too much, I get enough of that from textbooks, which I don't really read either.

Anyway, I am too tired to keep typing. So bye.

Something Interesting From The Lao Beng

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks!

1. Taken a picture naked? No
2. Painted your room? No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? No
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? No
10. Been in a fist fight? No
11. Snuck out of your house? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? No
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? Yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? No
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? No
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? No
35. Been suspended from school? No
36. Had detention? Yes
37. Been in a car accident? Yes
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? Yes
40. Pole danced? No
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? No
43. Felt like dying? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? Yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No
50. Kissed in the rain? No
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? No
53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes
54. Glued your hand to something? Yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? No
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes
59. Didn’t take a shower for a week? Yes
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? Yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
63. Been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? Yes
64. Broken a bone? No
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? No
68. Cheated on a test? Yes
69. Forgotten someone’s name? Yes
70. Slept naked? No
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No
73. Blacked out from drinking? Yes
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? Yes
78. Choked on something you’re not supposed to eat? Yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? No
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes
84. Thought about running away? Yes
85. Ran away? Yes
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? Yes
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? No
92. Dated someone more than once? No
93. Have a dog? No
94. Own an instrument? Yes
95. Been in a band? No
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
97. Broken a cd? Yes
98. Shot a gun? No

Hehheh

Woopie! Its 4 am something now. Just feel like dropping in a short entry so that people will know that I am NOT DEAD, contrary to certain popular beliefs and hopes that I may be.

Anyway, some friends have been asking me how I am, after seeing my "very sad" and "very angry" blog. I am okay really. I bounce back real quick.

Ahahaah, actually it wasn't all that bad. Maybe the way I write certain stuffs tend to convey something as being more serious than it really is. Heh, I rather like drama in my writing. You will learn to get used to it after a while, all my friends did. ^____________^

So it's all good. Apart from the stress that is slowly building up, threatening to choke me with its talons, I am okkkaaaay.

See? Drama.

Have a nice weekend, everyone!

Fundoshiied

Magic Fundoshi!!! One word, naughty! Haha. I don't want to go into a full review or whatever. Waste of my time really, when you can get tons of those from newspapers and the WWW. But if you like blatant, brazen humour and have high tolerance for HUGE phallic objects, go watch it.

I like it. Muahahahaha. It's quite cleverly written, and I really laughed till the tears came to my eyes. That's how I grade whether I like something or not. Although I am quite easily amused, I am also easily bored. So all in all, it kept me interested, so it's good.

But what I really want to blog about is Robin Goh. Ahahaha, I am seriously attracted to that guy, I tell you. Sexuality aside, I think he's one talented guy and well, I don't want to be all shallow and drool over his body, but MAN THAT GUY HAS NICE ABS!

I guess these are just the leftover feelings of admiration from when I was really young. Yeap, I’ve admired him since I was in primary school. That was probably back when he was still trying to get into Singapore’s entertainment business and not very well-known in the Singapore arts scene yet. 10 or 11 years ago!!! Wow, now that’s a long time ago!!!

Anyway, the first time I met him, I was with the drama club in my primary school, and my teacher sort of had this acting programme thing going on with this drama school or something, and Robin Goh actually came to our school as part of the programme. The whole thing was kinda complicated; he kinda pretended to be a boy from a forbidden world, trying to escape into our world, and needed our help to overcome the barriers.

And we could all write letters to him to encourage him in his, erm, “endeavour”, and I wrote a letter to him, which he actually read out. After which, he asked “Who is Moreen?”, smiled at me when I raised my hand, and he actually held my hand!!! Ahhhhh. Hahahah, a girl at that age, how could she forget the first handsome guy who touches her hand? Muahahaha. Anyway, years later, when he was in Star Search, I was a huge fan. I watched every one of his dramas, and was quite disappointed when he eventually dropped out of the whole acting thing.

I even had a video of him dancing to a Grasshopper song in an episode of Comedy Night, which I’ve watched like dozens of times.

That was how much I admired Robin Goh. Haha, well, of course I’ve since moved on to other actors and almost forgotten about him, but I guess this admiration thing is still inside somewhere.

I was reminded of it in 2004, when I went to watch ALADDIN The Magical Musical Pantomime and was blown away by his performance. Kekeke, and when I went for the autograph session, he smiled at me and said “Moreen? Thank you for coming.” Gosh! That guy is just so full of charm! I know, I know, it’s a well-known fact that he is of the common-gender persuasion, but it’s always alright to admire, eh?

Haha, anyway, I really hope to see more of him in local productions. Just can’t get enough. Muahahaha.

Time For A Long, NORMAL Post

At Ivy's place now, waiting for Yan to get up so that we can get to work. Lazy bum refuses to WAKE UP!!! Steamboat and mahjong session was WOOT! Been so long since I got some time to really have fun. Fantastic weekend.

Had my PR exam on Friday, it was ... I hope I did not do that badly. I am happy with just keeping a C, but best is of course a B. I WANT TO BE A STRAIGHT B STUDENT! Bahahahah. For some reason, I've always been happy with getting Bs, since secondary school. I am kinda easily contented that way.

Anywooooo, went to watch Ice Age 2 with my classmates after the exam, kekeke. It was alright, but I kinda liked the first one better. My classmate, Wan Jin said she prefer the second one. Maybe because I was so tired from waking up early the entire week.

Kinda walked around Plaza Singapura in a daze after that while waiting to meet up with the Pink Army girls. Looking for Hitsugaya keychains! Couldn't find any nice ones. Grrrr, how the toot (heehee, stupid word, toot, toot, toooooooot) am I supposed to consolidate the fact that I am a Bleach fan if I cannot display it somewhere? Sigh...

Met up with the girls at around 7 pm to celebrate Wyn's birthday, THEY WERE LATE AS USUAL! Seriously, this is getting out of hand... But anyway, had fun just sitting around and chatting with them. I LOVE MY PINK ARMY!!! -puke- Bahahaha. As usual, spending time with them is so much enjoyable. We just talk and nothing else, but we still have so much fun.

Talked to Sze and Yun about some stuffs bothering me, and it always never fails to amaze me how much they can make me feel better by saying the most outrageous stuffs, which actually helps. Kekeke. No Sze, I will not commit adultery! NO!!!! Bahahaah!

Anyway, it was a nice weekend. If you read through this post, it does seems like I have a lot of friends. Yes, yes, I am very popular, everyone loves me. You should too. Join the I-Love-Moreen fanclub. Free waterbottle and hankerchief upon registration. =P