Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Can't Sleep.

Feeling troubled.

Even though a decision has been made, it is still going to take time. Can't and not gonna rush.

But still, some things are not just a snap of the fingers, and it can be scary.

This uncertainty.

Times like this I really wish I am still a little girl.

Wish some fucktards would stop behaving like toilet bowls.

Thursday, July 21, 2011



"Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away"


Let's be daring for a change and choose the path we really want to, instead of the one everyone else says is right.

Even if we really get so lost that we have no clue if we will get back on the right track again.

What's the worst that can happen? We find our way again?

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

My Plate

Things that are constantly on my mind nowadays.

Doing my job properly yet not being coaxed/hoodwinked/bullied into doing things that are not under my purview, without creating any hostile feelings (which is damn near impossible because people are so petty nowadays).

Being able to separate personal feelings with job professionalism yet maintaining a comfortable distance to prevent situations of colleagues taking advantage of any degree of familiarity by overstepping their boundaries and displaying inappropriate behaviour at work.

Striking a balance between being an understanding superior to my staff yet not compromising on my authority.

This plate is getting a little too heavy to carry. Feeling the burden through and through. There is only so many holidays I can take to get a respite from all of this, no matter how temporary it may be.

I need some divine intervention.


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Don't Try To Change What Is Not Yours To Fix

I feel so exhausted.

I am generally one who is not very good with all those unspecific and complex rules of the "society", although I do try to just go with the norm and as I grow older, slowly start to simply accept even if I don't always understand what the hell is going on.

But I simply cannot stand it when I have to compromise my own sense of balance and peace of mind just so that someone else can feel better. Even if that person is deemed to be more superior in the whole scheme of social class distribution, which I think is rubbish anyway.

Social rules are made up by those who think that they are superior to control those who aren't.

I do not accept these rules.

I only care about myself and how I feel. Big surprise. If we don't play the same game, why should I go by your rules?

Just leave me the fuck alone and go play in your own pen.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


Beeeeeee! Still like him the best in the 3rd movie! Those deep, piercing blue eyes! Those powerful arms! The out of sync sense of humour. So adorable! What is not to like?

I was so sad when the Decepticon wanted to kill him, and he was looking at Sam with those sad eyes. Booo!!! Bad Decepticons! BAAAD!

I know the reviews for the movie are quite mixed, but personally, I like it. People need to stop nitpicking on the plot and just concentrate on the fact that this is simply a movie for some good old fun and entertainment. So what if the plot is shallow? This is not Inception, there is no need to think so much. Just watch it for the effects, the humour, and overall, everything just looks great.

But I am really starting to find Sam really irritating. He was kinda cute in the first one, second one saw him growing more into his own, so it was nice. But in this one, he seemed a little over the top, borderlining on becoming annoying with his whiny, hysterical behaviour. Why was he mad at Bee for having his own life when in the second movie, he was so eager for Bee to leave him to his own "normal" life? Selfish human.

But that said, I cannot think of anyone else better to play the lead guy in the Transformers series. So I really hope they won't try to plonk someone else in, rumours have Jason Statham (???) in the running. Seriously??? Just because he was the Transporter does not mean he will do well in another "Trans" movie. I don't care who he is canoodling. It is WEIRD to think of him acting in Transformers. We already have Optimus Prime, we do not need another alpha male crowding the screen.

To me, it's either you get Shia LaBeouf back, or not do another movie altogether. I was already very uncomfortable with the Rose-woman, who seemed so out of place in the movie. I am not a fan of Megan Fox, but if you want to replace a major character, get someone better or, in a similar vine, don't get anyone at all. I just don't feel like Sam and Carly had an actual connection, definitely not like what Sam and Mikaela had. I think it would be better if Sam loses the love of his life i.e. Mikaela, and became really depressed, then had to pick himself up again because of some ridiculous ploy that the Decepticons have again to harm humans. But oh well, what do I know?

Anyway, there are also rumours that Dark Of The Moon is the last Transformers movie, so who knows? It's hard to say, really. Like everyone thought we saw the last of Wolverine in The Last Stand, but Hugh Jackman came back with that Wolverine movie. I also still don't really understand what is the deal with Vin Diesel and the Fast & Furious movies. And don't get me started on the Predator series. So maybe they would come back with Decepticons Return, or Dark Autobots, or or or Autobots vs. Decepticons. Muahahaha!

Oh well, this turned out to be a longer post than I thought. So I shall stop. No spellcheck. And oh! I thought Optimus Prime was really cool too. He really suits the whole 独臂战侠 personna! =D