Masochist

Intoxicate me silly, why don't you?

How many times can one imprint the pain onto the one who is causing it, although through no fault of anyone?

Maybe life is just so.

Full of intense and overwhelming feelings that you simply forget about once everything is over. And you begin to miss it. Subconsciously seek for it. Consistently getting drawn towards it.

I freely admit, I must have sought it out because it does seems like the purest of joy comes from the truest of pain.

Because I am.

"Even if I hit you a million times, it will not be the same."

GDE #7

The last time I thought the end is near was a year ago. I geared myself and was expecting the worst. Yet, something I never thought could happened did, and it has been a really unbelievable time. Every minute worth a penny, and every penny worth treasuring.

Now it really feels like the end is near.

I won't bargain. I can't.

I won't expect. I shouldn't.

I won't ask. Because the world is not up to me and my whims.

All I wish for is for the Fates to be kind to me. To weather through this without scath.

"I wish you nothing but smiles and happiness."

GDE #6

Because it feels real.

That's all.

GDE #5

The saddest tears are usually shed alone...

CIHH?