KimDongWanIs

Woopie! I FINALLY GOT MY HANDS ON KIM DONGWAN'S DEBUT SOLO ALBUM. Yeap yeap! I am sure all can feel how estatic I am! I've been waiting for this album since the first day I listen to "Hey Come On!"

Hahaha!!! So happy! Expect the coming days, or weeks, or months to be filled with my Korean-yuppie-wannabe ramblings! Heeheeeheee!!!

Mushy Pink Army Stuffs Again

Yesterday was another testament of how blessed I am to have friends like my Pink Army.

Specifically my dearest baby Jun Jun. Hehheh. I won't go into the details here, but she is just such a great friend. Not only did she had no complaints whatsoever, she was supportive and tried her best to help, in every sense of the word.

I love you, my sister! =D

Life is always wonderful, no matter what, when I have my Pink Army by my side.

Anyway, is it weird that I find Gary Oldman extremely sexy now?

You Don't Need Permission To Be In Love

Just had a chat with HJ on the phone. I think the two of us are kinda in the same kind of limboic situation where we don't know what lies ahead of us.

The subject of spending the rest of your life with someone came up. And I suddenly recall reading somewhere before about there being no such thing as soulmates in this World, and that you don't absolutely have to spend the rest of your life with one specific person.

I think the whole idea is about working to make things work even if it's the wrong person, instead of banking on the fact that things will work out because it's the right person. Sounds confusing, but it makes a lot of sense to me.

No matter how, right or wrong, everyone has to work on making a relationship work. Sometimes I think that people give up too easily or they settle at what they have now, and it kinda just slips into a given and slowly fades to become unimportant and then into nothingness.

Sounds really bleak, doesn't it? But I think this is really what happens to a lot of relationships. Kinda sad, but in the end, probably, we can only blame ourselves for not fighting to make it work in the first place...

Crap Crap Crap

He probably doesn't know. His mood affects mine. When he's feeling down, I feel crappish too.

Sigh, let's hope that he doesn't read this ever, because I don't really have any other outlet to put down my thoughts without him knowing.

Blardy hell, how did I come to this?

Di Di Di

I am still kinda sick! I think the main reason is that I haven't really seen a doctor, just kept taking some meds I have at home and Chinese remedies. But I cannot afford to see a doctor right now! Because if I do, they will definitely give me some medicine that will knock me out for the next couple of days. Time that I cannot afford to lose.

Advertising Exam in 5 days! Now it gets exciting. I know that I am always leaving work until the last minute. But I think there is just a small part of me that enjoys the last minute mad rush of it. Why worry about something until you absolutely have to? =D

Oh well, that's it for lazing around, time to get cracking again. I have a system! And NO ONE MESSES WITH THE SYSTEM! Not even myself!

Dum Dum Dum

I am sick! Arrrgh! My mind feels fine but my body kinda alternates between feeling hot and cold at the same time, and I can't even walk without dragging my feet. Must be one hell of a virus to bring down someone as big as I am. -_-

Some things have changed in the past week, and although it is not that big of a change, at least now it's not entirely hopeless? I don't know. A lot of my friends have been telling me that this is as good as it is ever going to get, and that I shouldn't expect anything more anytime soon, or ever.

I don't really want to think too much about it, but of course I am and will continue to do so. But at the very least, right now, I feel happy about the way things are, and that's probably just enough for now.

Oh and there's this weird bug in my room, I have no idea what it is, that keeps banging itself against my wall. It doesn't really bother me, but why would a bug want to do that? Doesn't it hurt at all? It's just so strange.

Oh well. Who am I to judge on the perculiarities of species outside of my own when I hardly understand those of my own as it is? =D

Lies, Pride And Leaves, Wind And Trees

I told a big lie today. I don't know why I did it, but I did. All because I was too proud. Sometimes you can give up everything, but you just cannot give up on pride.

Everyone in this World have their own individual way of meeting the end of their existence. For me, it would probably be my pride.

叶子的离开，不是因为风的追求，也不是因为树的不挽留。 叶子的离开，是因为应该停止守候的时间到了。

Chirp Chirpy Chirp

The year is officially gone by half! ***Weird Sentence Alert***

Yaay!

Hmmm, why am I so happy? It just goes to show that I am getting older! So I should be crying instead of rejoicing!

Nyaaaaaaa!!!

But that aside, I think I am ready for the next half of the year. Whatever that happened in the past six months, or more importantly, the past three weeks *rolls eyes* are set to be pushed behind and moved on from! I know, I know, I sound a little crazy, but I am set!

I've did some nonsensical things in the past three weeks that I would probably laugh at if someone else told me that they did it, but oh well, irresponsible behaviour of an irrational person should not be held accountable to that person. =D

Some of my friends asked me "Are you going to give up on him just like that?" To that, I don't think I have an answer yet. It would probably take some time to move on from, and I cannot really force a person who does not want to be with me to be with me, right? Short of pointing a gun at his head, which would seriously cramp whatever little style I have left. =P

So there it is.

Alright, it's time to go out. I am having sushi with my baby Jun! Keke, wouldn't it be ironic if this whole incident turned me into a lesbian?

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NAH!!! NEVER!!! =P