Craving For A Bout... Deep Within

Sometimes I feel like I am not myself anymore.

Like a piece of what used to be me was left behind somewhere. And maybe a few more was lost along the way.

I find myself constantly wishing to be a child again. It's not about not wanting to take the responsibilities of adulthood. It's just the suffocating hopelessness that tomorrow will never become the better day that everyone looked forward to when they were young.

I just want at least a bit of that hopefulness, looking forward again.

Some people just becomes unhappy when they grow up, and stay that way for the rest of their lives.

I really don't want to be those people.

It's times like this that I get so angry with myself for being so affected by things that are not even within my control.

"I really hate you."