So yeah

The day is finally over. I am glad I managed to keep my spirits up even though it definitely took a beating.

Gonna have a watermelon soya milk to make myself feel better. That drink may sound like a weird combi but it's delicious.

The trodden today, the warrior of tomorrow.

Where The Fire Goes

Feeling demoralised today. The cunning gets rewarded and the good gets left behind.

I know that there is no true justice in this world, but I am trying to believe that if everyone just tries to live with fairness in their hearts, the balance will never be tilted too far.

It's getting difficult to even hold on to this hope. Day by day, it just seems like I am steadily being pushed into becoming just like the rest. Accepting everything without questions simply because we have no strength to fight back.

It's getting more and more difficult to show that I don't care when I do. I really do.

Amitabha

Unjust things happens all the time. Sometimes I don't even know if speaking my mind, standing up for what's fair even mean anything.

I am trying not to get too involved in other people's shit, yet at the same time I feel like I am not doing the right thing by ignoring all of it.

Still trying so hard to find a balance within all this and not lose my sense of right and wrong.

Please bless me with strength. I believe that I am on the right path. Please help me keep this belief.

This Is My Everyday

I like REALLY want to do this so damn much right now.

Rant Of The Day #1

Hate it when people ask you how much you bought something, then GLEEFULLY tell you that they bought it cheaper, and ask you where you buy. So if I tell you, you are going to give me back the extra 50 cents I spent?

Don't even think about getting your daily dose of desperately needed tiny, meaningless wins from feeling smug that you saved a few cents than me please. It's stupid and makes me feel like bitch slapping you.

Punk ass bitch.

So There Is A Situation...

Okay.

So I finished watching Bronson over the weekend. And I am still in shock over this scene...



There it is, his thing just... philandering around out in the open like nobody's business as if it does this for a living on a daily basis. From the exact moment I realised that it was out in the open, like REALLY out in the open clear as day and not just a quick camera work of a shadowy glimpse, I could not decide how to react.

The fact that I was watching the movie on a public bus not withstanding, it is the first time I ever saw the entire package of an actor who I like. I am not sure if I should be thrilled or scandalised about it. I am afterall, erhm, a lady.

A lady who had spent her life ogling over hunky actors, and thought that she had seen just about everything, who has now been stunned into silence.

Tom Hardy, you good.

Hardy Boy

Walking past the big screen at Shaw House the past couple of weeks, the trailer for the new Reese Witherspoon movie caught my eye more than a few times. Looking like a romcom one moment and a spy thriller the next, I was rather perplexed about the exact premise of the movie, but I did not gave it much thought. Although I recognised Chris Pine, he just doesn't do much for me. And there's the other guy who reminds me of a Russian government agent. He does not do much for me either, no offence to the Russians.

Until yesterday, I finally decided to take a good look at the trailer. So it IS a romcom slash spy movie. A quick look at the cast list reveals that Tom Hardy IS the Russian government spy lookalike.

Tom Hardy as in Tom Inception's-Eames-I-can-be-anything-you-want-in-your-dreams Hardy. Hey! I liked that dude in Inception! Although he did not have the jaded-guilt-meets-eventual-catharsis thing going for Leo, the danger-smothering-underneath-boyishness JGL had or even the controlled-perplexed-hence-constant-contemplation-yet-not-wanting-people-realising-his-confusion way that Cillian Murphy portrayed his character, Eames is a character you go to for a bit of comic relief from an otherwise depthy movie.

Realising that he was in This Means War gave it a little bit of brownie points. Realising that he is playing the main villian Bane in Dark Knight Rises with Ah Bale is absolute brownie explosion!

*brownies flying all over the place*

He is definitely one of the new actors to look out for this year. Plus, he is actually kinda cute if you really look at him. He is kinda a mix of Chris Evans' boyish, dorkish handsomeness, Vin Diesel's tough guy don't-fucking-mess-with-me countenance, and the aura of intensity that Gerard Butler has in every of his roles. *"THIS IS SPARTA!!!" kicks random ugly dude into big neverending hole*

I imagining myself doing that everytime I think about Gerard Butler.

So yeah, I think Tom Hardy is pretty great. I am currently halfway through Bronson, one of his movies in 2008. And he is simply, for lack of a better word, brillant. Such versatility. He looks like a totally different person. Role immersion at it's very best.

Happy Birthday To Me!!!

YAAY!!!

Before you think it's sad that I am wishing myself happy birthday, piss off and suck it. I think it's funny. Although I am not too happy about the mileage I am getting in the tank, I am trying to keep to my new resolve for this year.

To treat every negative, unpleasant thing that comes my way with a positive attitude. And wait for karma to spit it in the face. After all, no woe lasts forever. Eventually, everything will return to its rightful state.

Zen~~~

I hope I will have a good year in front of me. My wish for my birthday is for all my loved ones to be happy and healthy. For me to be in a stronger, better frame of mind every single day. AND FOR PEOPLE TO STOP SPELLING MY NAME MAUREEN!

It's MOReen.

Have a good MOReen day, everyone!

Ramblies

I was so tired that I fell asleep at 8 plus just now while watching The Big Bang Theory. Not that the show is boring, I love the show, just that I felt so damn tired. I was so adamant to continue sleeping that I forced myself up to angrily remove the dress I wore to work today, so that I would be able to sleep more comfortably. Yes, I was so tired that I almost went to bed without first showering, washing my face or brushing my teeth.

Luckily I heard the chime of my whatsapp ringtone, and the urge to constantly check that damn thing is more compelling than anything else in the whole world, so I forced myself awake again just to check my messages and realised that I suddenly felt rather awake. Hence, here I am, a teeth brush, a shower, and seven items of facial products as part of nightly routine later. I couldn't sleep after my shower, because probably no one ever could, so I blog.

So yup, I am constantly tired nowadays. I don't know why! I hate to think that it's because of my impending 2* birthday???

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Anyway, in related news in case no one remembers, I am having my last twenties birthday in a few days time. 3 days in four minutes time to be really exact. Sigh. Not sure how I felt about that. But so far I am having a good vibe about my birthday.

Had a BBQ with some friends and colleagues last Saturday to kick-start my celebrations for the year. Yes, celebration(S), haha! I love BBQs! And although some people may think that BBQ birthday parties are for kids, I believe in doing things I like for my birthday, and I really did enjoyed myself. I shall hereby declare that even when I am 70 years old, I will still be rocking my birthday parties, BBQ-style!

Tomorrow will be celebration number 2 with some of my Pinkies. I actually planned to celebrate with them on March 3, because some Pinkies are away this week, but Sze still went ahead and organised a dinner for me this week with a couple of Pinkies who can make it, so that I won't feel too lonely on my birthday week. HAHA! So nice of her! And not to be outdone by the BBQ party festivities on Saturday, we will be going for Korean BBQ! Yaay! Annyeong haseyo bulgogi!!!

Okay, it's getting late, I am feeling sleepy again. Time to snooze. Oh yeah! I am really looking forward to the two Snow White movies coming up! Both trailers look really good! And there seems to be no competition at all because one seems to be lighthearted and funny while the other one looks darker and more thrilling. Julia Roberts looks so pretty! And Chris Hemsworth is just *_*!!! Sorry Chris Evans, I have to go with Thor for this one.

Saw an Avengers featurette somewhere today. EVERYBODY'S MUSCLES LOOK SO BIG! Woohoo! 1 May 2012!

Shinhwa Comeback!

I am afraid to start listening to Shinhwa songs again. Took me so long to get out of that crazy, unwavering obsession with them, and Dongwan's abs.

I wonder if they will do a lot of dancing for their comeback. I am getting to that age when I don't really want to see people fleeting around maniacally on the stage anymore. If I do, I would just so sooner become a Justin Bieber fan.

Oh well. Nowadays, I only like looking at Kevin Cheng. At least I can sleep well at night knowing he is not at least ten thousand million years younger than me. Thank you very much.

The Route To Tattoo... Or Not

I am so obsessed with Kevin Cheng. He is so handsome.

Okay, now that I have gotten that off my chest, I would like to talk a little about something that I have mulling about rather often of late.

To ink or not to ink. If to ink, what to ink?

Not sure if this is something that all women even think about at one point of lives, much less everyone. So I don't really know who I can talk to about this. People who have tattoos will tell you it's no big deal, and that the only people who fusses over their tattoos are people without tattoos. And these people without tattoos are further broken down into two categories, the ones that are thinking about getting one and the ones that consider tattoos utter blasphemies and must not be partaken in under any circumstances.

I belong to the first category and I have long since came to the conclusion that it is really difficult to get much constructive advise on getting tattoos because Cat 1 will say "COOL! GO GET ONE!" while Cat 2 will say "NO! YOU WILL REGRET!" Somehow when people are so adamant that you will regret something, you just cannot help but feel trepidation at actually doing it, especially when people from Cat 1 are so enthuse about it which kinda makes you think if it is a good idea to rush into things.

I hate how my brain works.

Ooo! I just discovered a recent video feature about Kevin Cheng, gonna watch it.

Erm ok, long story short, I wanna get a tattoo but no constructive advise. Until I do, no tattoo.

The End.

On A Sunday Night...

I am afraid to go to work tomorrow.

Because of all the ugliness.

Thought Of The Day #16

If everything happens early on, then that particular story ends and a new one may never be as wonderful. Sometimes the best thing about a good story is the anticipation of the end.

Be patient and have faith that it will not disappoint.

That's the hope.