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Sometimes I feel like I am no longer so connected with some of the people that I thought I have a good relationship with.

Because the moment I stop trying to tolerate their shortcomings and tell them how I really feel, I become a mean asshole instead of the friend who speaks the truth because she really cares.

Is hypocrisy really the best policy?

If I don't give a crap about these people, I wouldn't even say anything and just let them wallow and choke in their own shit.

I don't think I have it in me to tolerate things that I find wrong or stupid anymore. I have to deal with my own problems and neurosis on a daily basis. Self-doubt, worry and fear plagues me every day.

Is it too much to ask for some slack so that I won't have so many reasons to be pissed off?

I know it may sound selfish or even arrogant, but there is just a lot on my mind right now. Some understanding would be deeply appreciated and reciprocated. Eventually.

Although, there are still people in my life that makes me feel encouraged and positive on a daily basis. Thank goodness for these people, or I would probably be in a mental institution by now.

I really, really do not want to be such an angry person. Thank you very much.